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Sometimes I think I'm too greedy for my own good.

I like being at home cuz it means I don't have to study, to worry about my spending or to eat unhealthy food. I like being at home cuz it means I can go out with old friends, speak my own language and spend hours at coffee shop, not to study but to relax. I like being at home cuz it means I can have flings, "innocent" flings, where I get treated like the most important person in the world.

But that peaceful, tamed world is too quiet. I'm too spontaneous for my own good. Sometimes I think I have a double life. The life in college where I can start studying at midnight and stay up four nights in a row just for the heck of it. The life in college where I can randomly crash a party when I feel fed up with things and drown my sorrow in the world of alcohol and dance moves. The life in college where there are random guys and strangers who do not give a fuck what they do, and what I do.

Is there any place in this world where the two worlds meet? So my two personalities can collide and be one?

[az]
10.06.2010