What Carrie feels.

Today, I totally feel the need, the urge, the yearning to be next to someone ... 
so 
 badly. 

Birthday.

When I started writing this, while re-reading my lists from the previous years, I can't help but wonder: "Since when there exists such thing as a wish list?"

I thought people are only supposed to have one wish, the one that they desperately, with all their heart and minds, want it to become true. Plus, it has always been said that, you have to keep your wish a secret, otherwise it wouldn’t come true. Nowadays, materialism has taken over. People, like me, just create these wish lists with the ultimate wish that someone will care for them enough to "grant" these wishes. Then they don't count as wishes anymore right?

I believe that a wish has to be something originates from the heart and it is out of one's ability to attain.  I don't think I have that sort of wishes yet.

For the time being, this materialistic girl will just call it a "need-list". 

1. A camera:     this has been on my to-buy list for ages, but I never find anything that I particular like enough to spend my money on (yes, I buy myself birthday gifts)

2. Starbucks:     I'm having withdrawal symptoms. This is really a wish, not a need =.=

3. Anything Chanel or Sex and the City related.

4.  A 10-page hand-written letter, a home-made 3 course birthday dinner or something just as rare and surprising (this most likely is also a wish)

5. A Carrie Bradshaw's birthday (Season 4, Episode  1 - this episode also came out in June XD), maybe a little bit more technology-involved cuz I will be really sad w/o some phone calls/texts/skype convos :)

I can't think of anything else. Whoa, so weird. Maybe the good thing is I have become less materialistic. Or it is just because I've become too materialistic it goes beyond the scope of a list. Maybe what I need is a boyfriend with a gold or platinum credit card and a generous heart.

I guess all I want for my birthday is to be spoiled, even if it's only for one day.

[az]

Twenty-Something

I remember that episode from Season 2 of Sex and the City, the "Twenty-Something Girls vs. Thirty-Something women"m Carrie Bradshaw has said: "Girls in their 20s, they are spoiled and ungrateful. They think they're it."

Last year I wondered to myself if that was true and was determined to take notes on this. Now, I have lived a year as a twenty-something girl, and I still wonder.

I am definitely spoiled. I know so, by the parents, the girlfriends, the more-than-friends, and the less-than friends. Ungrateful? Maybe. I do take things for granted. Why? Because I think I'm it. Such a self-centered, selfish, egoistic phase of life. But I like it, and that all it matters, doesn’t it?

It does occur to me though, everyone says that 20s are the best years of your life, or to be vain, the most important and life changing years of your human life. Are these such perfect numbers and perfect moments in life that people would give it all the fireworks?

I mean, there's the great skin tone (even Coco Chanel agrees), great hairstyle, great outfits,  the thrill of fresh experience, the sense of a consequence-free life full of endless possibilities, and maybe the excitement of  the social life and "mind-blowing" sex life which can be included under three of the above categories.

Other than that though, what else do we have to deal with? Horrible dorm rooms and 5-roommate apartments with no hot water and internet that shuts off before midnight? Or, the fact that the no-more-high-school-drama relief is now replaced by something even worse? With the freedom that comes with the number twenty-something, there are terrible things that goes with it, like sexually inexperience men or twin-sized bed that gives one plenty bruises when your "man" is trying to be rough? Or the transcript that is marked with S/F and Dropped-out courses? And the scary thought of what job hunting, CVs, resumes and interviews? Not to forget the embarrassing errors in fashion judgments.

It really makes me wonder what exactly the allure of the 20s is? To me it just seems like a bad boyfriend whom you know is treating you like shit but you just can't get rid of him. It seems to me like my twenty-something self is just a clueless-halfwit who thinks she knows more and has more experience now that everything she's about to do is right and she will fight for it until the end. And most likely, she will end up with her dream dashed, and illusions shattered.

However, I guess thinking about a next 10 year is a little too much of my clueless-halfwited mind after all. It just makes me feel more vain. I can't make judgment on the entire decade based on one year that I've survived. I'm going to have to keep going on this road, and make more judgment mistakes and do more terrible things in order to justify this.

Yeah, definitely too much thinking … I'll just listen to my horoscope for this month. There are lots of things about soul-searching. That might help.

Cancer

While you can continue to find yourself in high demand at the beginning of June, dear Cancer, you're likely to have an increased need for time to yourself and for extra rest as the month progresses. You tend to naturally withdraw from more competitive or demanding situations. You definitely need a break from a hectic pace and from the critical eyes of others. Even so, your job may undergo a number of little changes that require you to be adaptable and flexible. Friendships that allow you the freedom to be yourself and group associations can be especially pleasant and refreshing.

  

June 1 

A New Moon Solar Eclipse in your solar twelfth house occurs now and affects you for 3-6 months. This is a period of review, letting go, and recharging one's spiritual and, by extension, physical "batteries". Focus, now, is on fulfillment through service, empathy, and awareness of other's needs; but it can also be a time of withdrawal and some sort of retreat in a social sense, depending on your personal and natural predisposition. Some kind of soul-searching is in order, and the urge to find some level of emotional peace of mind will be apparent. This is a more sensitive position of the New Moon, and it is best to find some sort of peace for the soul in preparation for the New Moon in the first house—a period that is more active and busy than this one. 

June 3-4 

Your Personal New Moon. A new personal cycle begins for you, and you feel fresh and re-energized. It's all about you now, so it's time to put your best foot forward. A blast of personal energy comes your way, and showing your leadership skills works for you now. You are at your most convincing, as others are accepting you at face value. Some people find that the Moon in their sign brings with it a restless, discontented, and emotional state, and that there is more on their plate than they expected or wanted. If this is the case for you, remember that these feelings are there because you need to make a change, however big or small. Use it to stimulate activity and positive change.

June 5-6

Monthly money and income peak. You're looking at the world in terms of value and worth now, and what you have (or don't have) is on your mind. Money issues pop up now—the discovery of a way to increase your income, an unexpected gift or reward, or a brief and tiny financial crisis that motivates you to find new ways to make money are possible.

June 12-13

Romance and pleasure are highlights right now with the Moon in your solar fifth. The Moon is in your element, and so are you! The flowing, expressive, and spontaneous energy surrounding you attracts like-minded (and hearted) people. Be sure to take time to enjoy yourself, preferably around others! Keywords: romance, creativity, spontaneity, pleasure, self-expression.

June 15 

A Full Moon Lunar Eclipse occurs today in the sign of Sagittarius in your solar sixth house. Avoid blaming others for your own state of discontent if that's how you are feeling right now. You can use this surge of emotional energy to make positive changes to your routines. Do something to improve your work conditions if they are annoying you--even if it's a small act of kindness with a co-worker or bringing in something to brighten up your desk or office. Get going on your exercise or nutrition program that you've been toying with in your mind. This may also be a time when a work project comes to fruition or completion.

June 16-17 

Your partnerships are highlighted right now, and it's time to compromise. Insecurities in your partnerships are brought to light now, and the best way to handle this is to understand that you need others instead of competing for the floor. Some people find this time of the lunar month an energy sapper, as they feel ignored or unnoticed. Trying to go it alone won't work just now. The spotlight is on other people for the time being, and it's best to let them shine. Concentrate on truly listening to those close to you, and on playing a supportive role. Perhaps not a time to be make a presentation or to come on strong to the world. You are feeling reflective rather than expressive.

June 23-24 

Monthly career and reputation peak. Your credibility is important at this time of the lunar month, and efforts at self-promotion might be made now. This is the time when you're noticed for what you've done or haven't done. Do your best to be in top form, make career adjustments if needed, and don't be afraid to show others exactly what you're made of. You're at your best when you are showing the world your practical, competent, and responsible side.

June 30-July 1 

Your Personal New Moon. A new personal cycle begins for you, and you feel fresh and re-energized. It's all about you now, so it's time to put your best foot forward. A blast of personal energy comes your way, and showing your leadership skills works for you now. You are at your most convincing, as others are accepting you at face value. Some people find that the Moon in their sign brings with it a restless, discontented, and emotional state, and that there is more on their plate than they expected or wanted. If this is the case for you, remember that these feelings are there because you need to make a change, however big or small. Use it to stimulate activity and positive change

[az]

Reasons why you should look stunning everyday

 Because life’s too short to blend in. Don’t settle for average.


Because you’re only young once. You’re way more gorgeous than you know & have a fabulous body you’ll one day look back on and wish you had! Take advantage now and show off how fabulous you can be.

Because fashion is a method of self expression. What are you trying to say?

 Because you never know who you’ll run into. Brad Pitt at the grocery store? Hey, stranger things have happened.

 Because it obviously annoys some people (like the guy who asks why YOU are so dressed up). The fact that it annoys them so much is all the more reason to keep doing it

 Because you never know, there’s always a chance you could get snapped by The Sartorialist (or maybe the girls over at Street Spotted)!

 Because you deserve to look your best at all times.

 Because you’ll never improve your sense of style if your default look is “I give up”. Yes, that was a Seinfeld reference. But it’s true!

 Because dressing up helps you weed out friends who don’t love you for you. If they have a problem with the way you dress, they’re not the kind of friends you want around.

 Because cute clothes and accessories are a great conversation starter. Wear something fabulous and people will ask you where you got it.

 Because parties aren’t the only time to celebrate.

 Because that fabulous party dress in your closet cost too much to only be worn once. Remember cost per wear?

 Because it’s fun!

 Because even if you live in an “unstylish” city & are scared to dress up, cities don’t become stylish without someone going first. I know it sounds cheesy, but be the change you want to see in the world. Everyone else can follow your fabulous lead.

 Because dressing up helps you make fashion mistakes and get past them. Mistakes happen to everyone and that’s how you learn what not to do – get them out of the way now! 

 Because it’s a test of your confidence. Dressing unconventionally forces you to develop the self-assurance necessary to stand out from everyone else.

 Because fashion is one of the rare instances where art comes alive. What artistic statement do you want to make?

 Because if you’ve got it (great style, killer confidence, amazing legs), it’s just wrong not to flaunt it.

 Because someday when you have a 9-5 corporate job and are required to wear business suits, you’re going to miss the freedom of dress you had in college. Experiment now! There’s no better time.

Because glamour isn’t only reserved for the rich and famous, even though maybe they’d like you to believe it is.

 Because if conspiracy theorists are to be believed, the world might end on 12/31/2012 – that’s only 1211 days from now! Even though we all worried about Y2K too, why not be on the safe side? Don’t spend the theoretical 1211 days you have left in sweats.

 Because Carrie Bradshaw would not approve of your sweatpants and UGG boots. You can do better than that. And deep down, you know I’m right.

 Because dressing well means you don’t have to do your hair at all – you’ll have that ultra fabulous, slightly disheveled Kate Moss look.

 Because nothing beats the rush you feel when you look in the mirror and LOVE what you see.

Because you want to. That’s the only reason that matters.