Daily note.

I still laugh at this note every time I read it. Such a cute gesture from the guy. I still remembered how much it made my day to wake up to this, even though it confused me quite a bit at first.

You were such a sweetheart (maybe not anymore). Still, thanks for all the memories :)

Workers Compensation

by Viet Pdf Nguyen on Wednesday, April 27, 2011 at 7:49am 

Although workers compensation law must provide a balance, it should never

form a loophole for those employers who want to price out risks that are going to 

cause injury. A "true intent" interpretation of the exclusivity exception will give you

such a loophole. This is because when an employer as immunity for culpability up

to pure intent, any risk that was taken for a legitimate business purpose will never

qualify for an exception. However, courts using a relaxed view of intent are going to

prevent such pricing out of workplace injuries. Only a relaxed standard will let you 

bring a tort claim for a substantially certain risk of injury - effectively tearing down

the financial incentive by increasing cost. Thus the proper standard is never going 

to be true intent when the goal is increasing workplace safety. But, it is critical to

remember that workers compensation represents a quid-pro-quo and we can't run

the risk of upsetting the balance. Using an intent standard somewhere around

"substantially certainty" would continue to provide immunity for safe employers and 

only increase the liability exposure for this employers whose actions would desert

the standard of "accident" under tort. Therefore, when defining exclusivity, if you

lose time from work, accidents in which the employee loses time, they carry

on. 

Daily Note.

I must admit that I have pretty bad temper. And because I have a pretty straightforward personality, my temper doesn't help me with my attempt to try to be nice to people.

Recently, I have been in constant bad mood. I could blame it on stress (here it goes again: taking Orgo is exhausting), but to be honest, I am nowhere as stressed as I am during the school year. Something definitely bothers me though. Usually I am a pretty social person, and I enjoy the company of people. There are even times when I get scared of being alone and have to actively search for people to be with. Yet recently, being around people annoys me. When my friends get too excited or start making too much noise, I get irritated. I feel terrible, because I shouldn't be taking out my bad mood on other people, especially those who do nothing wrong to me. It gets to the point where I just try to hide in my room most of the time, like literally, go into my room, lock the door, and pretend that I am not home so that people won't bother me. Or it gets to the point that I repeatedly ask him if I could stay over just because I don't want to go home and deal with all the people.

It's pretty terrible isn't it? I try to listen to happy music, exercise when I can and focus on working on my wall project when I am in my antisocial mood. But it has been more than two weeks and it doesn't seem to get any better. Maybe I just need a change in people I hang out with. I have always been a social butterfly but the good thing about that is I can switch up the people I am with all the time. During the summer, there's not much choice though.

On a more positive note, I got to talk to So Youn this Saturday and that made me happy. She has always been my support all the time and I get strangely attached to her. If she was a guy, I wouldn't be surprised to see myself with her *laugh* I miss random conversations, midnight meals, all-nighters and sleep overs at each other's places. I have been so spoiled recently that I like the feeling of having someone to sleep with me. Not a good habit, I must say.

I guess one good thing about me is that very little things can make me happy, even when I am in constant bad mood. Such as certain text messages, or chat conversations. They may not matter to the people who said all that stuff, but to me, those were definitely pick-me-up moments. So when I get really exhausted from studying and get irritated at people, I can just think about those moments and smile.

My wall is getting filled up and it is looking just how I want it to be.
And my mom is in the US, visiting.

Summer is going to end soon. I am half looking forward to the school year, half wanting to go back to the beginning of May and relive the summer. Although, on second thought, I would not want to go through another period of Orgo. I am trying my best, but it is killing my brain cells definitely.

Hopefully, I'll make the best out of the next 3 weeks.

P/S:  Hmmmm, should I go on a super random and creative date? 

Daily Note. 4th of July version

I normally don't celebrate 4th of July, simply cuz I have never really been in the US during the summer to celebrate it.

But may be also because I have never been that much into fireworks. I love watching them, but it's like, I'm not gonna die if I don't see them.

My housemates and I had a super chilled 4th of July. We just went to Starbucks (for the A/C and the bathroom cuz ours was broken =.=) and hung out for hours.

I very much enjoyed my time sitting in the sun, studying for Orgo and getting distracted by color pencils and starting a sketch.

It was very relaxing to play with colors.
I miss those days when I could just go to art classes and draw my day away, and didn't appreciate them at all. I want to take art classes again.

Daily Note.

I have never been the type to take 10 thousand pictures of myself and put it on Facebook or Youtube. It makes me feel very self-conscious and uncomfortable. As much as I like attention in reality, I hate unnecessary attention via online social meida. Thus, there is a reason behind this camera whore moment.

Today is an fairly gloomy Monday. After an extremely long and stressed out week, I woke up with the realization that this week is not going to be any better. There are exams and finals coming up, which I actually have to do well in. Moreover, I will want to slack off on studying and going to work, but I won't be able to. Pretty depressing mood to begin the day.

However, I have been studying nonstop for my Motivation psych class, and surprisingly, I learned something. As I laid in bed, I thought of how I should not let the stupid weather put me in a bad mood and how I still have to keep going with my no-negative-adjective resolution. Thus, I decided to get out of bed and looked pretty.

I totally went out of my comfort (or emo) zone and purposely put on something bright colors. It might not have affected my mood significantly, but it totally brightened up the dark aura surrounding me. I swear I had more than 10 people came up to me and wondered why I had something white on today.

Bottom line is, I tried something different and it lightened up my mood. And I truly believe that a girl can dress and look pretty anytime she wants to just for the sake of looking pretty.

13 more days and I can work hard on something else that is not exam and is much more interesting.

Summer is coming <3

Daily Note.

I ran into him for the first time since we were "over" tonight.
I was someone else's date for the banquet, and he, of course, brought his girlfriend.
I didn't think it would affect me this much, but there's just this uneasy feeling keep churning in my stomach. I am so such a bad person for thinking this, but I feel slightly jealous with her. She is pretty but I don't know what is it about her that could keep him, while I couldn't. Okay, to be fair, I kind of let him go on my own, due to circumstances, I really have no right to be feeling like this. Still, I keep having this thought in my head: "A year ago, it was me in that spot".

A year ago, it was me who he texted and called to say goodnight. It was me who he took care of so gently and so tentatively, wouldn't let me stand in the cold for even 1 minute, would lend me his coat whenever I wanted it, would put the blanket over me when I fell asleep studying in his office. It was my hand whose he held possessively in front of his friends. It was me who picked out dress shirts for him the morning. It was me who had his attention, and his care at all time.

Now, all I could get was a hug and mundane conversation like we were even less than friends. I have broken up with more than one guys. I wasn't even that upset nor cry when I ended things with him. Things just happened naturally. But for some reason, this haunts me more than anything. I keep wishing that I wasn't so stupid and could let go of my ego. I wish it was a better timing when I didn't have to go abroad when he needed someone with him. I just secretly I could have been there, last night at the banquet, as his girlfriend.

How greedy of me. Wishing for something that I let go just because other girls get it. Maybe next time, I shouldn't let go of someone that makes me truly happy. Or maybe next time, I should just keep my head, and heels, high and make them secretly wish they didn't let me go. Yep, that's how it should be.

Thanks God I actually looked flawless last night, and it wasn't one of those days when I bum around in nerdy glasses.

Okay, 10 minutes of regretting time is over. Time to move on.

Daily Note.

Starbucks 4:21pm
The first sunny day in Rochester

I am trying extremely hard not to stare, or pull out my camera to take picture of a guy sitting next to me.
He's writing a letter with a fountain pen (!) on beautiful paper and in gorgeous and neat cursive hand writing, looking incredibly calm and happy.
This makes me feel like something melted inside me, warm and peaceful.
At least I know that somewhere in this world, there are still people who appreciate the art of writing.
Whoever that letter will be sent to, I am sure it will make his/her day.
One day, I wish I can receive a letter just like that.

Daily Note: Wake up slow

Waking up early to the gorgeous sunshine weather, I realized I haven't sit down for breakfast, coffee and the New York Times for a very long time. Despite having got up in the morning early frequently this year, I haven been consumed by appointments, deadlines, emails that I don't remember the last time I spend some time with myself to begin the day.

I have never thought of myself as a morning person, but apparently I am. I actually enjoy waking up early, taking my time to shower, putting on make-up extremely slowly, picking my outfit, matching accessories, organizing my bag, scheduling what I have to do during the day,etc. Being able to do all these things makes me happy. I know, happiness in such trivial things. I know I just got back from vacation, but the feeling of being able to take my time during a busy schedule is entirely different from knowing that you have all the time in the world to waste. 

Of course, Jack Johnson is playing, and my favorite blogger is talking about pancakes and french toast.

I think, if I could ask for one wish right at this moment, my wish would be:

1.  Have an evening off and do something enjoyable but relaxing. I have been all over the place and got sucked in with parties and social events every single weekend for the longest time ever. How I yearn for just a quiet evening. Maybe after going out for dinner, I can just grab a pint of ice cream, and a bunch of unhealthy snacks, snuggle under my blanket and enjoy a movie or two or read a novel until I fall asleep.

2. Wake up slow. I want to be able to wake up without the first thought of "What should I be doing today?". I just want to lay in bed for a while, doing nothing, listen to my morning play list. Breakfast in bed would be amazing. I suddenly have a craving for pancakes, or french toatsts, with tons of fresh fruits, and yogurt. I don't know what I want to do after that but to beable to start my morning that way would be more than enough.

Aiya, I feel like I have been wanting such simple things in life lately. Honestly though, it's the simple things in life that bring you happiness.

1 more exam, a few more things to do for Vagina Monologues, and maybe I will reward myself  . Although, I can't help but think, wouldn't it be nice if I have someone to surprise me with such a wonderful plan? Now, that is a REAL wish to be asking for.

[az]

Meebo Chat Log

Friday, 2010 February 19 - Meebo chat log

[11:56] Quit ®: thời gian nó xóa nhiều thứ của ng ta quá..
[11:58] azurelovely: i hate time and distance >___________________<

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[11:58] Quit ®: đó là kết quả của sự sống độc lập
[11:59] Quit ®: để rồi giờ nhìn sự yêu thương đang tới với mình
[11:59] Quit ®: mà mình e ngại...
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[11:59] Quit ®: t ko biết
[11:59] Quit ®: t nghĩ m ko nên đánh mất những gì mà thằng time với thằng distance
[11:59] Quit ®: đang eliminate của m

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[12:06] Quit ®: m đành lòng kết thúc 1 thứ mà csống này đang cạn kiệt dần à?
[12:07] azurelovely: ....
[12:07] Quit ®: nhìn t nè
[12:08] Quit ®: t đã chấp nhận thua cuộc sống csống nè
[12:08] Quit ®: vì tình yêu của t ko có giá trị nữa
[12:08] Quit ®: vì csống này và những con ng sống trong nó
[12:08] Quit ®: đã giết nó rồi
[12:08] Quit ®: nhưng t sẽ ko thể như vậy mãi
[12:09] Quit ®: nhưng ko có nghĩa là csống này đang đầy đủ tình yêu
[12:09] Quit ®: trong khi nó đang tới với m
[12:09] Quit ®: nó cần 1 ...chỗ để lớn lên
[12:09] Quit ®: m sẽ để nó lớn lên hay sẽ kết thúc nó ?...

[12:13] Quit ®: t phục m
[12:13] Quit ®: vì m có ý chí
[12:13] Quit ®: nhưng t nghĩ t vẫn cần ở cạnh m
[12:13] Quit ®: stimes
[12:13] Quit ®: để nhắc m là
[12:13] Quit ®: nói gì thì nói, cũng phải mở lòng ra mà mềm yếu 1 tí
[12:13] Quit ®: ko mất mát gì đâu, mà nếu có thì nó cũng giúp mình mạnh mẽ lên thôi...
[12:14] azurelovely: vậy mày cần tao ở cạnh mày vì stimes you need to be stronger
[12:15] Quit ®: đấy
[12:15] Quit ®: mình giống Ying và Yang
[12:16] azurelovely: perfect couple, lol
[12:17] Quit ®: yah stimes i wish i were not gay so we can hav sex and even hav children , i'm tired of hanging out with ya and cutting our nails tgether and talks abt boys and gossips

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Facebook Survey

Sunday, 20th February 2010, 1:03AM - Facebook survey

"Người ấy phải là người thực sự có cá tính, cá tính mạnh nhiều khi còn lấn áp cả bạn nữa. Bạn sẽ cảm thấy cuộc sống có ý nghĩa hơn khi “có” người này trong đời. Họ là người đủ sâu sắc để hiểu những cảm giác của bạn, đủ sáng tạo để chia sẻ những ước mơ của bạn, nhưng cũng đủ “điềm tĩnh” để “trấn áp” những cơn “nổi loạn” nho nhỏ của bạn. Bạn sẽ thấy bực mình vì sao người này hiểu bạn đến thế, thậm chí lúc đầu có thể bạn sẽ thấy ghét người ta nữa. Nhưng rồi, bạn sẽ hiểu, đó chính là “một nửa” của bạn. Này, bạn có biết người ấy mến bạn vì bạn rất thú vị, rất nhạy cảm không? Nhưng hãy bơn bớt “cái tôi” của mình đi nhé !!"

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