"I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing; kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I believe in miracles."- Audrey Hepburn

Feb 26, 2013

Things I love Monday

I haven't been able to stay up and stay focus all night for a while. Despite my many attempts to stay up last semester, I kept falling asleep and ended up never make it through the night. Since I actually finished more work than I planned, I am giving myself a pat in the back and a moment for myself (I can't really go home before the sun rises anyway).

I have had an extremely unproductive weekend during which I basically had no motivation to do anything. I was getting scared for a moment since I technically was binge sleeping all weekend. I mean, who doesn't like to sleep in and such, but for me to not be able to get up before noon is somewhat ridiculous. I always feel terrible if I wake up any time after 10am because I feel like I have wasted so much time of the day sleeping. I was just so worn out after the two exams and The Vagina Monologues that by the time Sunday came around, I just wanted to do nothing.

Speaking of TVM, I can't believe this was the last show of my undergraduate career, and I have doubts that I would ever be involved in the show again. Despite lots of dramas, and problems, we put together a kick-ass show, as always. I was rather unmotivated the entire semester and had to drag myself to rehearsal every week. I guess we were too busy stressed out about little organizational details we lost sight of what we were trying to fight for. TVM has always meant so much to me and I am so glad that I have never failed to be a part of it, and put all my efforts into it. I was feeling slightly down that my closest friends here didn't come out to support but I guess it didn't really matter.

Compared to the Sunday during which I did nothing, I accomplished a lot today, despite it being a Monday. I was slightly overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to do for Sigma and was freaking out. I was all tensed and irritated when I was asked "What was one thing that make you happy today?" and that one question made me realize that things are not at all that bad. So I'm making a list of things I love Monday, or Saturday, or Sunday, or all days.
  • I am one step closer to one thing that I have been doing for Sigma ever since I joined. Of course it is still in the preliminary planning stage, and I have lots of meetings and writing to do, but if I can make this happen, it'd be one of my most significant accomplishments. 
  • I should appreciate the friends that I have and the connections that I have made much more. I was being stuck and had no idea how to make this bar party happen, a friend stepped in and helped me out so much that all I need to do from now on is just making a decision (skip all the phone calls and logistic talks). Or when I don't even have to ask twice and people are willing to help me out with other things. 
  • Encouraging messages throughout my super thick stack of notes that I have to memorize by tomorrow. I almost gave up on studying when I saw the note and it actually kept me going.

  • Really really really good indie music
  • Really big cups of tea
  • Checking off all the things on my to-do list + check off things for the next day too
  • Homemade waffles + whipped cream + chocolate ice cream + blueberries at midnight
  • Actually crying my eyes out watching a movie =.=
  • Long hot showers
  • Falling asleep next to someone who keeps me warm
  • Extremely good workouts at the gym
  • When my best guy friend and I both agree that he knows me best
  • People who give me confidence and make me feel good about myself
  • Great conversations with my mom
  • Looking at apartments ~~~ and thinking about adopting a cat, or a chinchilla
  • Cream cheese stuffed french toast at midnight
  • Realizing that sometimes going with the flow is not too bad of a thing, maybe
  • A really long list of things I love
Let's hope this week will be a good one too. I'll be [fairly] free after that exam on Thursday. 

Feb 15, 2013

Lunar New Year, and new hair!

I love it when I go on my favorite blog and find a great quote of the day:

“The right man will move heaven and earth to be with you–the real, authentic you with all your wonderful flaws.” – Ann Sheybani

It's that time of the year when I have no time to do any fun stuff and have to spend my weekends away at the library. I thought my senior year would be all about partying, clubbing, baking and gaming. But no, I am so busy during the week that the only time I can study for my classes is during the weekend. It is a good type of busy though. There's so much planning that I have to do that even for an organizing freak like me, it is a little bit overwhelming. Working around the schedule of 20 different people is not an easy thing to do. Also, trying to calm people down when they are stressed is also difficult. I am never the soft type of person and I am always afraid that I may end up scaring people more than calming them down. I really hope that I am doing a good job at what I do, and if not, well, I will always have my friends to help me out. 

Despite all those complaints about being busy, I did go out three nights a row last weekend and that was a little bit too much even for me ... Staying up until 4am the entire weekend to go out and during the week to do work drained the energy out of me. I really want to keep the healthy habit of waking up early to do work and have enough time to go to the gym every other day, if not every day. I'm trying to commit to something regular, for once. 

Lunar New Year passed by so quietly and quickly for me. I really should come up with something and start writing my New Year Resolution blog entry as I always do. Note-to-self: do that once the two exams are over. I did get to go out for Asian food with my friends and spent the rest of the day doing nothing. Also, this year was my last time I got to watch China Nite. I wished I had the time to be involved in it but oh well, it was entertaining to be able to sit back and enjoy the whole show too. I am so happy for my CSA little for putting up such a successful show. She worked so hard for it >___<

Besides that, the highlight of my week, or even month, probably is that I finally was able to get the haircut that I've been waiting forever for. I have been growing my hair long (and tried to fight the temptation of cutting it off every other week), and spending so much time and efforts to dye it, curl it, take care of it and make sure it looks healthy just for this half-shaved style. The lady who did my hair did such a good job and it turned out exactly as I wanted it to be, which made me extremely happy. I love that feeling when you wait for so long to do something and finally get to do it and it turns out to be amazing. One more thing off my bucket list. Now I need to think of something else to do :)

Loving it

Feb 1, 2013

Daily Note

Waking up at 8am to a snowy day after a late night out was not the best thing I had in mind to start my Friday. I was dreading the 20 min plus walk to work, just thinking about all the snow. It took me forever to get ready because all I wanted to do was curl back up in bed and go to sleep.

Once I got out though, I wasn't bad at all. The snow was soft and pretty and I actually walked extra slowly since I was enjoyed myself a little bit too much playing with the snow. My ipod read my mood this morning and played super good music too.

End of my 2nd week of the last semester my senior year. I have almost no work at all and that makes me feel super uneasy. I can't believe I can afford the time to read ahead of class, have lunches and dinners with friends, and go to the gym every night. For the past 3 years, this schedule of mine is unheard of. I half want to get busier, but at the same time want to stay like this just to enjoy myself. Although, I think I have pushed myself a little bit too hard running. My entire body is in pain, good pain though. I need to stop running like a mad person just to get all the frustration out. I was trying to get over a certain thing on Wednesday that I ran until I couldn't feel my muscles any more. That wasn't a good idea. What's the point of putting my body through pain because of someone else? Oh well ...

Anyway, on another note, now that Trissha is back, our entire Rho class is together again. We had dinner together for the first time after 4 months on Wednesday, and it felt so good to have all of us. It's not like we always have to be together to have fun, but having all 5 at the same time gives off a completely different dynamic. I can never imagine how different it would be if there wasn't 5 of us. I feel like we wouldn't be Iota Rho in the first place. I don't spend a whole lot of time talking to Trissha as much as I talk to Wai Ling (since she lives with me) or Soyoun (since she stays over all the time). Yet, I like spending time with her just because it gives me this calm and relaxing feeling. Like, I can get worked up, stressed out and angry at things but as long as Trissha is there, I won't go over the top. Going out with Trissha has its own fun. We had so much fun clubbing last night it made me wish that summer or spring can come faster so all 5 of us can make that trip to Vegas like we planned too.

Soon enough, I'm going to be busy again. I have been waiting for this semester every since I joined Sigma. I really hope I will do a great job. If I can finish this year strong, that would be the most accomplished thing I have ever done so far.

Snowy Friday ... Gotta bake something warm while hanging out with the Rhos tonight.

My hair is not liking this weather at all. So dry .....