Birthday.

When I started writing this, while re-reading my lists from the previous years, I can't help but wonder: "Since when there exists such thing as a wish list?"

I thought people are only supposed to have one wish, the one that they desperately, with all their heart and minds, want it to become true. Plus, it has always been said that, you have to keep your wish a secret, otherwise it wouldn’t come true. Nowadays, materialism has taken over. People, like me, just create these wish lists with the ultimate wish that someone will care for them enough to "grant" these wishes. Then they don't count as wishes anymore right?

I believe that a wish has to be something originates from the heart and it is out of one's ability to attain.  I don't think I have that sort of wishes yet.

For the time being, this materialistic girl will just call it a "need-list". 

1. A camera:     this has been on my to-buy list for ages, but I never find anything that I particular like enough to spend my money on (yes, I buy myself birthday gifts)

2. Starbucks:     I'm having withdrawal symptoms. This is really a wish, not a need =.=

3. Anything Chanel or Sex and the City related.

4.  A 10-page hand-written letter, a home-made 3 course birthday dinner or something just as rare and surprising (this most likely is also a wish)

5. A Carrie Bradshaw's birthday (Season 4, Episode  1 - this episode also came out in June XD), maybe a little bit more technology-involved cuz I will be really sad w/o some phone calls/texts/skype convos :)

I can't think of anything else. Whoa, so weird. Maybe the good thing is I have become less materialistic. Or it is just because I've become too materialistic it goes beyond the scope of a list. Maybe what I need is a boyfriend with a gold or platinum credit card and a generous heart.

I guess all I want for my birthday is to be spoiled, even if it's only for one day.

[az]