Keep calm, and let it go.

Sometimes, it takes a lot to give things up and let them go ...

Out of the sudden, I just feel frustrated with everything and it is like everything is coming at me all at once. I don't know why I am being this way, and I don't know why I'm letting things affect me this easily, but they are. I want to just not think about anything, and let it go.

It is emotionally exhausted, and I don't even know if I have the luxury to spend that much of my energy and efforts. I always put on a strong front, and I firmly believe that as long as I do that, I will be fine. Apparently not. Sometimes I get tired of fighting back and working hard all the time. Sometimes I think people are stepping all over me and pushing my limits because they have this "She's-strong-she-will-be-fine-we-don't-have-to-worry-about-her-feelings" kind of attitude.

I always fight for things I believe in. I always trust and have faith in people. I can be really patient, and I will take on challenges. However, if that means I have to suffer sleepless nights, to have thousand of thoughts racing through my mind all day, to doubt and conflict with myself on every issues, and to break down and cry on every subject while talking to my friends, I don't think it's worth it.

A part of being a strong and smart girl is to let things go when you don't think what you do worth your time and efforts anymore.

Emotions and relationships are overrated.

Maybe it's time for me to let go ...

 [az] 2:29am